I WISH............

by Angeles

I wish... I wish... I wish...

* I wish I am not here

* I wish I say thank you more often

* I wish I can see you again

* I wish I am more humble

* I wish I am stronger

* I wish I was with you

* I wish I have my hair

* I wish I am a better friend

* I wish this is all a nightmare

* I wish I am a better person

* I wish I am normal

* I wish I am not weird

* I wish the Big C is a big joke

* I wish I am more positive

* I wish I can be the same Angeles as before

* I wish I am not crying so much

* I wish I have my mom with me

* I wish I have my family

* I wish I am not suffering 

* I wish I am not feeling alone anymore

* I wish this is not happening....... 

Love Angeles

UNITE For The FIGHT with Angeles

by Angeles

Life is giving me so many opportunities to be better person, stronger than ever and do something in life that is really important to me and always for a good cause.

Couple weeks ago I received an email for a nice lady who wanted to be in contact with me to offer me a really nice opportunity.  My surprise was huge when I read the email than they wanted me to be the person to celebrate and honor at the Unite For The Fight Breast Cancer Walk Saturday, October 3, 2015 in Fort Lauderdale. What a fabulous HONOR! Because who I am? I'm Angeles , I have Cancer and I am not the only one but she wrote so beautiful words about me that I was overwhelming.

"We have been a fan of your fashion blog so we have been following with you on your journey, and feel you are are an empowering and inspiring women to recognize and celebrate" 

WOW! And of course I had to say YES!

Thank you to Katie Centorrino Masucci for contacted me and Traci Lynn Jewelry for this chance to be part in such wonderful event!

So, my dearest friend, family and readers you are invited to this special event Saturday, October 3 2015 in Fort Lauderdale. Wear something pink and be happy!

I need all of you if you can and  have the time and energy. Your support is giving me more strengths, power and energy to continue this journey and I know with your 

LOVE to me I will win this battle so soon!

Please register online:

http://www.tracilynncares.com/registration

Come to say HELLO and open your mind to know more about the BIG C and me!

Love,

Angeles

I'm Angeles and I have Cancer

#Iamgoingtofightwithstyle

  

MAGIC HAIR

by Angeles

Picture by Dania Graibe

Tuesday, August 18th 2015 at 4am in the morning I could not sleep more and I went to the bathroom.  I was feeling strange, too much thinking, may be some pain in my body but I noticed that something was happening. I saw me in front of the mirror and I discovered that my hair, my magic hair  was falling a part. All of them! So fucking crazy to see how your hair is not alive anymore. I was in shocked of course. It is worst than in a movie, you know... all of those stereotypes that movies show when you are losing the hair for the side effects of chemothrapy. 

Well, this is my story, my own private story.... not too private because I prefer to share the experience with you, it is a good feeling at the end of the day to say how is this difficult process, how much 

affect the femininity of a woman.

In my case I want to have this process like a ritual, a new beginning, a new Angeles , a new Chica..... yes! Because it is something to remember and I need to live this experience second by second.

The day I cut my hair was magic. In a private special soiree with some closes friends, in silence, in a friend house, who generosity he gave me his own space to made a mess on  his living room. With all my hair, my tears and all my emotions we created a night full of creativity, 

so fucking real and so magic!

In a few days you will have the opportunity to see the whole magic process in  avery special film.

Now, talking about films, for a good surprise today I discovered that the talented Penelope Cruz is in a movie interpreting a woman who is diagnosed with Breast Cancer. Amazing moment to fight this Big C and even the world and the fashion world is fighting for this diseases and I am part of this.

Amazing moment in my life, for good or bad all of this is gong to give me more strength and valour to keep going in this battle.

Because I want to LIVE!

Penelope Cruz cover of Vogue Spain in a fabulous short hair.

My new me!

Thank you for being with me my dearest friends, it was a unique night that I am 

going to remember forever.

Thank to:

Carlos de Varona, Danny Santiago, Jhon Santos, Juliana Ramirez, Blanca Sanchez, Rodrigo Gaya, Kevin O, Michael S, Danni Leon, Dania Graibe, Cassey, Olatz, Claudia Mendoza and Juan Poggi. 

Thank you for being in my life!!!!

Love,

Angeles

I am Angeles and I have Cancer

#Iamgoingtofightwithstyle

ad·mi·ra·tion

by Angeles

After too much think and have been in a emotional weekend, I decided to write something about this peculiar word. A word that I love because I admire so much fabulous people that I met in my whole life and now this word it is in the other side of the coin.

ad·mi·ra·tion - for all my fellow friends, for all my artist and creative people, the filmmakers, the musicians, the fashion bloggers, the dancers, the actors, the designers, , the photographers and also for my ingeniers friends, lawyers, bankers, sales person, waiters, bartenders and more....... I admire you and I respect you so much , you are doing something so well in this life and you are with me as a friends!

Thank you

Now.... when I said this word it is in the other side of the coin it is because refer to ME now. 

Yes, sounds funny but for the first time someone admire me ...... and it is that person that never thought one day it is going to say something like that. 

And the day came this Sunday!

My Father, for the first time on his life he is thinking of me with respect that I am someone ,  a daughter than she can do things alone, independent and be strong.

For years I was the rebel one, the black sheep, not good student at all, the artist ... the daughter that has been taken bad decisions and not trustful. Well..... now I am doing something good..... I can not explain my happiness to hear from my father that he admire me because he said I am a good person and deserve to be happy and be well. No more suffer no more pain just live the life at fullest! 

Thank you father, from the bottom of my heart, thank you because for many years you were out of my life , you didn't know your own daughter but you appeared, in a simple way without any fancy act, jus as you are, a human not perfect father but with your heart to receive a daughter who is not perfect at all either but she needs you now .... in the worst 

moment of her life.

Love you father! and I admire you because you changed and because you are my Father.

I am Angeles and I have Cancer

#Iamgoingtofightwithstyle 

I was in Hell... but today is a new Day.....

by Angeles

This weekend wasn't easy, sorry if I didn't answer back my messages but I wasn't in my best moment.... really I was in hell.

My first Chemotherapy wasn't nice, all the secondary effects came to me during Friday and Saturday this weekend. I can not describe what I was feeling. No words to describe what it is happening to me. So much pain, even my hair was on pain over my head. My bones, stomach, my breast, everything were in bad situation. Dizziness and nauseas as the same time. That Saturday at 4am I had to go out from my place because I could not be more time inside in the same room with all of these effects. Thanks God my good friend Jhon was with me , and he gave me the real 

company that I need that morning.

I noticed in my body that I am killing this Big C, in a very small steps. I can feel every pain, every emotion and every tear. I know it is a new chapter in my life where I am learning to be brave and strong because I don't know too much about this and I didn't expect to have so
much suffering in just few days.

I was in ChemoLand, the room where all the cancer treatment happens. I decide it is a cool name because it is gonna be my second home for couple months.

That day they put me the RedChemo (plus other ones) I was in shock when I saw the tubes but it is part of the process. But I have to say the people who is working at the Sylvester Comprehensive Cancer Center at the University of Miami  were amazing! Really nice, human people with a big heart, Thanks you for being so nice with me.

My journey continue, one Chemo gone. The second is coming soon but I have some free weeks to get my Vitamins and be strong again. 

I am so happy that it is Monday today and I feel so much better, slow as a Turtle hahahaha!!!! but I am positive and optimistic that everything is going to be well ..... not soon .... but everything 

is going to be alright!

Thank to all my friends and family for the fabulous messages , you made my day with those nice words and all your support to me! 

Love 

Angeles

I am Angeles and I have Cancer

#Iamgoigtofightwithstyle

#fuckingcancer

The "PORT" My best Friend

by Angeles

Today I am going to do the second step in this new Journey. 

I am scared to this new adventure with my best friend, "the Port" because it is going to be a little bit painful, uncomfortable and so times really  strange this whole process.

My first chemotherapy is today. It is going to for at least 5 hours. 

Just I want to share this with you because I don't know what it is gonna happened to me, how my body is going to react but I will be won this battle,

but it is just the beginning!

Be with me in this adventure and smile to me when you see me!

Love all of you!!!!!

I am Angeles and I have Cancer....

#Iamgoingtofightwithstyle

#fuckingcancer

Picture by Angeles Almuna