Monday, August 24, 2015

UNITE For The FIGHT with Angeles

by Angeles




Life is giving me so many opportunities to be better person, stronger than ever and do something in life that is really important to me and always for a good cause.
Couple weeks ago I received an email for a nice lady who wanted to be in contact with me to offer me a really nice opportunity.  My surprise was huge when I read the email than they wanted me to be the person to celebrate and honor at the Unite For The Fight Breast Cancer Walk Saturday, October 3, 2015 in Fort Lauderdale. What a fabulous HONOR! Because who I am? I'm Angeles , I have Cancer and I am not the only one but she wrote so beautiful words about me that I was overwhelming.

"We have been a fan of your fashion blog so we have been following with you on your journey, and feel you are are an empowering and inspiring women to recognize and celebrate" 

WOW! And of course I had to say YES!


Thank you to Katie Centorrino Masucci for contacted me and Traci Lynn Jewelry for this chance to be part in such wonderful event!

So, my dearest friend, family and readers you are invited to this special event Saturday, October 3 2015 in Fort Lauderdale. Wear something pink and be happy!
I need all of you if you can and  have the time and energy. Your support is giving me more strengths, power and energy to continue this journey and I know with your 
LOVE to me I will win this battle so soon!

Please register online:

Come to say HELLO and open your mind to know more about the BIG C and me!

Love,

Angeles


I'm Angeles and I have Cancer

#Iamgoingtofightwithstyle



  



Friday, August 21, 2015

MAGIC HAIR

by Angeles





Picture by Dania Graibe

Tuesday, August 18th 2015 at 4am in the morning I could not sleep more and I went to the bathroom.  I was feeling strange, too much thinking, may be some pain in my body but I noticed that something was happening. I saw me in front of the mirror and I discovered that my hair, my magic hair  was falling a part. All of them! So fucking crazy to see how your hair is not alive anymore. I was in shocked of course. It is worst than in a movie, you know... all of those stereotypes that movies show when you are losing the hair for the side effects of chemothrapy. 

Well, this is my story, my own private story.... not too private because I prefer to share the experience with you, it is a good feeling at the end of the day to say how is this difficult process, how much 
affect the femininity of a woman.

In my case I want to have this process like a ritual, a new beginning, a new Angeles , a new Chica..... yes! Because it is something to remember and I need to live this experience second by second.
The day I cut my hair was magic. In a private special soiree with some closes friends, in silence, in a friend house, who generosity he gave me his own space to made a mess on  his living room. With all my hair, my tears and all my emotions we created a night full of creativity, 
so fucking real and so magic!
In a few days you will have the opportunity to see the whole magic process in  avery special film.

Now, talking about films, for a good surprise today I discovered that the talented Penelope Cruz is in a movie interpreting a woman who is diagnosed with Breast Cancer. Amazing moment to fight this Big C and even the world and the fashion world is fighting for this diseases and I am part of this.
Amazing moment in my life, for good or bad all of this is gong to give me more strength and valour to keep going in this battle.
Because I want to LIVE!

Penelope Cruz cover of Vogue Spain in a fabulous short hair.
My new me!

Thank you for being with me my dearest friends, it was a unique night that I am 
going to remember forever.

Thank to:
Carlos de Varona, Danny Santiago, Jhon Santos, Juliana Ramirez, Blanca Sanchez, Rodrigo Gaya, Kevin O, Michael S, Danni Leon, Dania Graibe, Cassey, Olatz, Claudia Mendoza and Juan Poggi. 
Thank you for being in my life!!!!

Love,

Angeles

I am Angeles and I have Cancer

#Iamgoingtofightwithstyle




Monday, August 17, 2015

ad·mi·ra·tion

by Angeles







After too much think and have been in a emotional weekend, I decided to write something about this peculiar word. A word that I love because I admire so much fabulous people that I met in my whole life and now this word it is in the other side of the coin.

ad·mi·ra·tion - for all my fellow friends, for all my artist and creative people, the filmmakers, the musicians, the fashion bloggers, the dancers, the actors, the designers, , the photographers and also for my ingeniers friends, lawyers, bankers, sales person, waiters, bartenders and more....... I admire you and I respect you so much , you are doing something so well in this life and you are with me as a friends!
Thank you

Now.... when I said this word it is in the other side of the coin it is because refer to ME now
Yes, sounds funny but for the first time someone admire me ...... and it is that person that never thought one day it is going to say something like that. 

And the day came this Sunday!
My Father, for the first time on his life he is thinking of me with respect that I am someone ,  a daughter than she can do things alone, independent and be strong.
For years I was the rebel one, the black sheep, not good student at all, the artist ... the daughter that has been taken bad decisions and not trustful. Well..... now I am doing something good..... I can not explain my happiness to hear from my father that he admire me because he said I am a good person and deserve to be happy and be well. No more suffer no more pain just live the life at fullest! 
Thank you father, from the bottom of my heart, thank you because for many years you were out of my life , you didn't know your own daughter but you appeared, in a simple way without any fancy act, jus as you are, a human not perfect father but with your heart to receive a daughter who is not perfect at all either but she needs you now .... in the worst 
moment of her life.

Love you father! and I admire you because you changed and because you are my Father.




I am Angeles and I have Cancer

#Iamgoingtofightwithstyle 





Monday, August 10, 2015

I was in Hell... but today is a new Day.....

by Angeles






This weekend wasn't easy, sorry if I didn't answer back my messages but I wasn't in my best moment.... really I was in hell.
My first Chemotherapy wasn't nice, all the secondary effects came to me during Friday and Saturday this weekend. I can not describe what I was feeling. No words to describe what it is happening to me. So much pain, even my hair was on pain over my head. My bones, stomach, my breast, everything were in bad situation. Dizziness and nauseas as the same time. That Saturday at 4am I had to go out from my place because I could not be more time inside in the same room with all of these effects. Thanks God my good friend Jhon was with me , and he gave me the real 
company that I need that morning.

I noticed in my body that I am killing this Big C, in a very small steps. I can feel every pain, every emotion and every tear. I know it is a new chapter in my life where I am learning to be brave and strong because I don't know too much about this and I didn't expect to have so
much suffering in just few days.

I was in ChemoLand, the room where all the cancer treatment happens. I decide it is a cool name because it is gonna be my second home for couple months.
That day they put me the RedChemo (plus other ones) I was in shock when I saw the tubes but it is part of the process. But I have to say the people who is working at the Sylvester Comprehensive Cancer Center at the University of Miami  were amazing! Really nice, human people with a big heart, Thanks you for being so nice with me.






My journey continue, one Chemo gone. The second is coming soon but I have some free weeks to get my Vitamins and be strong again. 
I am so happy that it is Monday today and I feel so much better, slow as a Turtle hahahaha!!!! but I am positive and optimistic that everything is going to be well ..... not soon .... but everything 
is going to be alright!

Thank to all my friends and family for the fabulous messages , you made my day with those nice words and all your support to me! 

Love 

Angeles

I am Angeles and I have Cancer

#Iamgoigtofightwithstyle
#fuckingcancer



Wednesday, August 5, 2015

The "PORT" My best Friend

by Angeles



Today I am going to do the second step in this new Journey. 
I am scared to this new adventure with my best friend, "the Port" because it is going to be a little bit painful, uncomfortable and so times really  strange this whole process.
My first chemotherapy is today. It is going to for at least 5 hours. 
Just I want to share this with you because I don't know what it is gonna happened to me, how my body is going to react but I will be won this battle,
but it is just the beginning!
Be with me in this adventure and smile to me when you see me!

Love all of you!!!!!

I am Angeles and I have Cancer....

#Iamgoingtofightwithstyle
#fuckingcancer


Picture by Angeles Almuna

Wednesday, July 22, 2015

I have the BIG C.....

by Angeles




“Where there is love there is life.” 



I am in love with life, with friends, with my family, with my work, my fashion life .... with everything and now for the first time I have to be more in LOVE with ME!
I read a couple of days ago that right now I have to be the Number 1, numero uno. Because I love so much what I am doing and I need to pursue all my crazy dreams.
And I discovered that I have the big C..... I have Cancer.

Around seven weeks ago I was in my bed touching my breast because the bra was itching me and I found something, a thing that it was clear wasn't just a little thing. I was really worry. The next day I talked to my boss about it and she said you must go to the doctor.
Well, I went to the general doctor and she saw and felt that thing. 
I wasn't worry at that point just a little bit nervous but I knew that I needed 
all the answers as soon as posible.
When I was at the mammogram exam, alone, thinking that everything is going to be ok, my mind started to be really concerned. Probably I have something? Could be a lump,
could be something else?
I did the ultra sound and voila, they found the thing plus more.... I was lying down , half naked and getting more nervous and asked if I can go, the nurse said no - "the Doctors are coming" - after that I knew that something was wrong.
At that moment, I felt so vulnerable and weak, what the doctors are going to say to me?
Doctors came and they said -"yes we found the thing that you found it but we found another one..." - Wow! my mind was blowed away and the worst came after when they did again the ultra sound and they found a third thing. All in my breast! 

It is difficult to accept that somethings is going on and you don't have the knowledge to fix something that in my case I had not a clue the next steps. 

It was Thursday when all of this happened, it was a lot but the next day will be
another big day, biopsy day.
The biopsy went well with all the things that might happened in health proceed. They said to me that I will have the results in a week. "In a week!" - I said, next week is my birthday, interesting, an unexpected week is approaching!
Wait is the worst thing for me, specially when it is involved health issue. I was thinking too many things, good and bad, but you can not do anything, just wait with the best face and humor.

Friday, June 26 I received the call - "I have your results, is this a good moment to talk? Can you seat .... I am afraid is Cancer..." - the doctor said.  I am not gonna forget never that I am afraid. And voila! my life starting to change immediately.
Exams and more exams, in and out to the hospital and also the difficult part of telling to my dearest friends and family the news.
Not Easy at all. 
Saturday, June 27 I celebrated my birthday because I wanted to celebrated life, the privileged to be here, to say thank you to all of those fantastic people that I met and  they are surrounded me because they gave me support, they helped me in my work and also in my worst days.

Now I am here writing these little story with my bad grammar, because I am not perfect but I feel that I have to tell you, my readers what is happening to me because is good to talk about Cancer when in my case I don't know too much and I am going to need your support to fight this big C.
I will be out, I will work, I will laugh and  I will be diferent because you now what the big C means, a lot of changes. 

Fuck! I am very scary, this is too much, it is not easy but I know this new adventure and journey in my life is going to be something really special. A time to grow, to see life with  other eyes, be stronger and I am gonna be super POSITIVE. I will try my best with all my heart because I LOVE so much my life! And I have too many fabulous dreams to conquer! I want more projects, more creative work, I want more fashion adventures, I want to travel more , I want to fall in love again.... 
I want to be HAPPY!
I know I am going to be well in 6 month because this fucking shit is going to be out of me very soon!
I have too Much LOVE in my heart and I want to share this LOVE every day for the rest of my life!


Smile to me when you see me, give me a huge hug and I will give you a lot of LOVE!
This is the most emotional time in my life but I am going to be well soon.


I am Angeles and I have Cancer.


#Iamgoingtofightwithstyle





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