I have no idea how to start this but I need to find the right words
to say what I need to say.
I have been in Cancer treatment ( as you know already ) since June 2015, 11 months into this crazy process. One of the biggest changes in this adventure when you are suffering from Cancer is your look. And I have been dealing with my changes everyday
and learning to accept them and be happy as the same time.
After chemotherapy, pills, all kind of side effects, injections, pain and a big surgery, I am here accepting myself for who I am and not for my look. After all of these my energy is back as well my hair and some light in my skin. But of course not everything is perfect and I don't still look perfect. And I am ok with that.
My hair is growing with such energy that is back in all my body, even in places that I didn't know that I have hair, like my face. I don't care about it. This is me, a little monkey who is very pale and happy to be like this.
Being open in the social media world is hard sometimes but I have to be clear that my look is not the last word, my look is part of me and I love my new me! I know that my appearance is different than other women, that my make up is not so strong and perfect but I like that, simple effortless european French or wherever
you want to call it.
If I don't look perfect in pictures or in real life, so sorry, I have more important things to do right now with myself than to be constantly worried about my appearance.
For the first time in my life the word discrimination touch my own heart, my inner me, because I am trying my best, when I am working at the museum, in fashion or when
a big brand hired me to do a job.
Let me being very clear, I am suffering pain every day, in all my body, I have a big scarf that its remain me that I have Cancer, one boob and it is so fucking painful to deal with this everyday and see me in front of the mirror and discover who I am now; and as the same time I am still working, being with my best style, trying to be positive, strong, a good person, generous, laughing, embracing this moment and continue with my fabulous life, my journey!!!
Thanks for your time and reading this.
Have a good day my friends!